What Am I thinking?

I think the title is self explainatory. my tickets have finally been nailed down and I will be leaving my home of 15 years for as long as 6 months. For a third world country. Holy crap.

Suddenly I'm paniced.

As my dear friend shauna would say OMFG.

I'm really scared. I've never lived on my own and allthough i'll be living with a family I'm really scared of being alone there. What if I can't make friends? Thats the scariest part. I don't want to spend 6 months lonely with no friends.

Also I'm kind of scared I won't live up to the expectation sI have for myself. Like i won't be good at teaching er something.

On the plus side I have a chance to work with this really cool project that interviews women around the world, kind of a girl power connection think. I'm really excited to be a part of that.
Thats the reason I want to do this at all, I think we all need to learn to be connected to everyone. We forget that there is a whole world outside of us and that Africa or Haiti or wherever isn't a place just on TV commercials.

Don't get me wrong sometimes i get so excited to go I can't breathe, but the flight plans just make it so final you know? So definate. I know it will be amazing but it's just so huge. But I feel like if i don't do this now when I don't have any close by friends or a good job or a boyfriend or school I might never do this. I want to earn a story now.

I want everyone to come visit me lol. I'm all ready sad thinking how much i'll miss everyone.

I love anyone who reads this.

Details

Ok guys so Christopher has sent me my project details

I will be a peer counsler at the Bishop Calin Davies Academy, which is a catholic primary school.

so we'll just see how that goes..

Anyway I'll be staying with a family at the mission in the village kilusu in the division mulot in the south rift province. I'm not quite sure what that means. Is a province like a state?

Also I have been promised water and electricty so it's looking pretty good guys.

Also there is a market and health office where I am encouraged to reach out to other women.

Thats all I have time for now as i have to go to work, and don't particularly feel like writing. I'm restless.

Howdy Few Followers.

I love you guys.

SO I have an abstract schedule

My last day of work is March 7th then I have all my free time to hang out with everyone over spring break. I will spend the rest of march shopping and getting things ready to leave and spend a week or so with my AUnt Nancy in new Jersey--for which I am very excited.

I will then spend the begining of april crying.
I will then leave mid-April and go London to hang with the family there

and I will be in Kenya May 1st.

Learn Swahili!!!!!!
0-sifuri
1-moja
2-mbila
3-tatu
4-nne
5-tanu
6-sita
7-saba
8-nane
9-tisa
10-kumi

Swahili is Crazy

Allright.
So.

I am officially going to Kenya. And I am officialy going to be living in the bush.

For those of you who don't know the bush is the part of kenya we associate with the Lion King. I will be living out in Maasai country, Maasai being the indigenous nomadic people of Kenya, and working with a catholic organization to improve social welfare of children and women particularly but of all Maasai people. I will be living with a Maasai family so hopefully they don't need to move well I'm there.

So far to get ready for Kenya I have gotten my Hep A and B shots, Aquired my Malaria and Typhoid pills and an antibiotic called Cipro that is basically a body reboot taht somehow stops DNA from rewinding. My doctor told me not to take it. That makes me slightly nervous.

So here is what I know about Kenya thus far

It's HUGE and mostly dry
They are currently rewriting their constitution
The Maasai mainly live off of a diet of cows blood mixed with milk ( Nutritious and Delicious)
The Maasai male can be circumcised as old as 22
To offer a Maasai Male food is to embarras him
It has the most car accidents in the world (which is weird as most people use public transit)
People cover everything in Doilies
I should wear boots.

I guess I should throw out my heels?

I am also trying to teach myself Swahili and if any one reading this is interested let me tell you that it is harder than you think. The pronunciation is completly alien. Here are a few words

Ndege- Dog
Paka- Cat
Mvula-boy

I know more complex words but i'm not sure how to spell them. The grammar also makes no sense thus far.

I am 18 year old girl going to a border line 3rd worl d country by myself. I have never lived on my own before and the longest I have ever been away from home is 3 weeks.

Please excuse me well I throw up in Terror.

Updates will follow.

I already miss everyone


So I am an 18 year old girl going to a differant continent by myself.